“And said, Remember now, O LORD, I beseech thee,
how I have walked before thee in truth and with a perfect heart, and have done that
which is good in thy sight. And Hezekiah
wept sore.” (Isa 38:3 AV)
Sometimes, the perfect will of God is a hard thing to bear. Hezekiah was just told that he was to put his
house in order because the illness of which he was suffering was terminal. What disturbed Hezekiah the most was not his
death. Rather, he had no male heir. There would be no son of Hezekiah to carry on
the throne of Judah. No lasting legacy to
the revival which Hezekiah brought to Judah.
No legacy of faith that withstood Assyria to pass on to his seed. No grandchildren. No wonder Hezekiah wept sore. This was God’s will for him. A hard reality for sure.
Living for Jesus is not for the faint of heart. There is a difference between being a
believer and being a disciple. The
disciple is learning to conform to true Christlikeness. He or she is learning the mind of Christ and
found in First Peter and Philippians.
They are learning that true discipleship means a death to self. This is why the first step of true discipleship
is to deny self. There are costs to following
Jesus that many will never know. There
are private costs. These are unfulfilled
desires or dreams. The cost of missing
out on the blessing that others enjoy is perhaps one of the hardest to bear. Resentment, like Hezekiah’s, is way too easy
a temptation. These costs are seldom
welcomed. They are seldom a cause for
joy. Persecution is easier to endure, in
one sense, because we see the result of that costs. But these private costs are the hardest. Unless we walk in the shoes of those whom God
has asked to sacrifice, we will never understand. I have been blessed with three sons who love
the LORD and are serving, or have been trained to serve, the LORD in full-time
service. They have private costs that no
one will ever know. They don’t publish
it. They don’t share it. But they are there.
Hezekiah made the mistake of asking the cost be removed. God heard him and granted him fifteen more
years. Two years later, he would father
a son who would bring Judah down to final judgment. Even though Hezekiah seemed not to be too
disturbed by this fact, it had to eat away at him. As he waits for the final consummation of all
things, he has to bear the fact his son, born two years after God removed the cost
for service, was the king that destroyed what was left of Judah. We may feel sorrow over those things God asks
is to surrender. These things are
necessary. These things have to be. It hurts and it hurts deeply. But fighting it from the emotion of
resentment, asking the LORD to remove the cost may indeed increase our sorrow
even more. Sure, Hezekiah rejoiced at
the birth of a son. Now he had an
heir. But at what cost? Greater than the cost of not having a son to
begin with!
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