“So Esther’s maids and her chamberlains came and
told it her. Then was the queen exceedingly grieved; and she sent
raiment to clothe Mordecai, and to take away his sackcloth from him: but he
received it not.” (Es 4:4 AV)
The back
story here is important. The reason Mordecai
was in sackcloth was he, as well as all captive Israel, were in mourning. Haman, that wicked servant of the king, moved
with envy against the Jewish people. Mordecai
refused to bow before him as he entered the palace, so Haman convinced the king
to write an edict that would exterminate the Jewish population in the
kingdom. This he did without knowing his
own queen’s lineage. Esther was
Jewish. Haman may or may not have known
this. It mattered not to him. He was upset with Mordecai and wished to see
all Jews dead. This is why Mordecai was
in sackcloth. Being found in sackcloth
in the presence of the king was also an infraction worthy of death. This is why Esther sends out garments for
Mordecai to wear. The verse which
follows reveals Esther knew nothing of the decree set against her and her
people. When the garments were returned,
she discovered the purpose and reason of the sackcloth. It mattered not to Mordecai. He was a dead man anyway. What difference would it be if he was killed
for wearing sackcloth or because he was a Jew?
May as well mourn before God for your life than to wait for the
inevitable.
While in Junior
High, I was part of the drama class. We
put on plays throughout the year. I
remember two of them distinctly. The first,
The Little Drummer Boy, I played the lead role.
It was all over the local newspapers and I was on the front page. Yuk.
There I was for all my friends and the entire community to admire or
mock. Whatever they were predisposed to
do. The other play, which I do not
remember, is burned in my mind for one reason.
It was the first time I kissed a girl.
Not on the lips, mind you, but for a twelve-year-old, kissing was embarrassing
no matter the person. Especially in
public. During practice, the drama
instructor tried as hard as she could to get me and this girl to do the
scene. When we got to the kissing part,
we simply couldn’t do it. So, she
rewrote the script to allow us to shake hands.
Whew. Dodged a bullet there. Whether it was The Little Drummer Boy or the
later play, dress rehearsals and the play itself found the players dressed in
attire that reflected their character.
There was the classroom where we were all made up. But we came to the play already dressed for
our part. There I was, in the passenger
seat of our car as my mother dropped me off, dressed like a street urchin of
the first century. I wore the garments
in public and one can only guess what others were thinking. It mattered not. That was who I was at the moment. I was the Little Drummer Boy. Even if my garments made others uncomfortable,
it didn’t matter. I had a calling and
purpose that required me to dress that way.
If someone, who did not know my purpose, offered me a new suit, I would
have rejected it. The garments reflected
my purpose.
Comporting
ourselves as saints will, by nature, make others uncomfortable. Our emotional state is something that defines
what we are and what we might be going through.
Mordecai was concerned with the future of Israel. He was concerned with what that decree would
mean to many. He was not concerned with
the future as far as the nation’s existence.
He was fully convinced with the covenants of Abraham that if the king’s
decree was successful, then God would raise up Israel from a different stock
than was captive in Medio/Persia. His
mourning was over the consequences of this edict on the people and families who
would be killed. As believers, we think
we have to hide what we are going through.
There is a fine line between hiding what we are going through and a
balanced and measured expression of the trials that face us. We should always exhibit faith and joy in the
troubles that face us. But we cannot
swap out our concern and sobriety as though what we face does not affect
us. Mordecai’s choice to wear the
sackcloth resulted in Esther discovering the purpose and being an instrument in
the hand of God which brought victory from defeat. Being transparent with life and circumstances
may move others to do something about it.
Perhaps putting on that strong front isn’t what we need to do. Letting others see there is something going
on is a way to elicit prayer and comfort in your deepest time of need.
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