“Now also when I am old and grayheaded, O God, forsake
me not; until I have shewed thy strength unto this
generation, and thy power to every one that is to come.” (Ps 71:18
AV)
My
mom was like this. My mother passed away
from complications of non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma.
She was also a type two diabetic.
When she was going through her second to last round of treatments, we
had a phone conversation. She didn’t
know what to do about the present round of treatments or if there were more to follow. She was tired. She was wore out. Raising eleven kids and tending to the needs
of a husband who was a bit particular would have weakened the strongest of
us. We had a conversation regarding end
of life decisions. She commented there
were too many people who were depending on her for her to give up. That is admirable. That is the spirit which we should all
have. That is the attitude that David
showed right up until the day he passed.
David had to solve the issue of Adonijah and Solomon only days before
his home-going. He was not concerned
with his failing health. He was not
concerned with who would take care of him.
He was concerned with the kingdom and whether they would continue in the
word of God.
Life
will always have its problems, trials, and needs. No matter the age, there will always be obstacles
to overcome. There is no such thing as a
perfect life. There will always be
things that cause anxiety. There will always
be fears. There will always be those
sleepless nights. There will always be
those changes in life that knock us for a loop.
Right now, as I am leaving middle age and making my way to my older years,
there are changes in life that come with it.
Changes I should have anticipated.
Changes for which I should have prepared myself. Changes that are natural, but still a bit
unnerving. Purposes change. Abilities diminish. Resources are depleted at a faster rate. All these things weigh on the mind. They have since Adam and Eve aged. There is nothing new here. I am going through it, and so too will most
other men. It is a pattern of life. The question becomes, what are my
priorities? Why is it that I want the
LORD to be nearer than He ever has been before?
Is it because of all of these changes in life cause anxiety? Or, like David, should I want the strength of
the LORD because, like my Mother, I have people who depend on me and to whom I
can impact? That is the question for the
rest of my life.
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